Monday, January 10, 2011
8:21 AM
I'm jus so emo:(
I dun even think u will be reading this..
But what I really want to say is Im still weak..
I may have laugh and joke in front of u...
I may have look so normal..
I may have give a great big smile..
I may have jus sound normal..
I may have say its ok..
I may have say Im fine...
I may have tell everyone Im better and healing...
But only deep inside I know..
I really want to cry..but no tears wants to come out...
I really want to jus hide aside and be all alone..
I really want to tell u that Im not alright...
I really want to say that everything is really not fine..
I really want you to hug me..
I really know Im hurt...
I try to be strong but it cnt stay long...
whenever I see u commenting on other girls fb..
whenever I see u chatting more than other girls instead of me...
I felt worst:)...
Im jus so alright till Im not...
I agree Im really weak now..
I agree I still like u...
I agree Im lying to everyone including myself that Im fine...
I agree that when I say Im ok I meant Im really not ok..
I agree when I say dun worry I meant I want u too worry but I dun dare to say it out...
Lets jus hope time can bring this pain to memories that once think back is nothing more but something like a vapour of smoke that will vanish really quickly..
Will you ever notice me...